Hoping for results

I ended up going to work that afternoon and it was probably the only thing that kept my spirits high..A it kept my mind off of things and B the kids there just lifted me ....not sure if they could sense something was wrong (as I have found kids can do quite well) or what it was but I had them coming up saying how they missed me in the morning and giving me hugs. I decided to still keep it from co-workers until I was 100% sure, I did have quite af ew ask me if I'd been sleeping well or what was wrong I didn't look or act like myself..I just told them I was fine. During that week I did a lot of looking up on the internet (grying too can't forget that) reading up on the topic. What I read about the symptoms and such was it was hereditary...asked both my parents and this was something not in our family. Also said stuff about vomiting, night sweats, itchyness..all of which I didn't have. The only 2 things I did have was the enlarged glands and the fatigue. Still it seemed the more I read the more scared I got and upset. Just reading the side effects of treatment and the realization that I may have some form of cancer got to me. The doctors said it was cureable buit I was reading how life expectancy is only 20 years after...that would make me 47...can this be possible. I have to say my Canada Day was anything but greatest...I spent most of it alone trying to understand why... I don't smoke I don't do drugs (never have never will) I drink but that's like once in a blue moon..But as they all say everything happens for a reason and I'm sure someday I may realize why this did. I called July 2nd to find out if any results were in...My luck they were closed until Monday...great more waiting...